VIOLET

I'm breathing,
but I'm not alive.
I'm hearing,
but I'm not listening.
I'm touching,
but I'm not feeling.
I'm seeing,
but I'm not focusing.
Everything around me is moving so fast.
The sun goes in, the moon comes out.
The moon goes in, the sun comes out.
Yet I never feel the difference.
Everyone is moving so fast.
It feels like I'm in a time-lapse.
Everyone is moving on.
Moving forward.
But I'm standing,
Alone,
Not moving an inch.
Everything is so grey,
so black,
so white.
Where is the red?
Where is the blue?
Where are the colours?
Where are you?
I feel alone.
I feel defeated.
I feel vulnerable.
Where are you?
Life seemed so promising.
Life seemed so beautiful.
But all of a sudden,
Everything was gone.
Why?
I'm fighting it.
I swear I'm fighting it.
But I need help.
I need a hand.
I feel myself,
Falling and falling and falling.
This infinite hole feels so sad.
So blue.
How do I fight it?
How do I climb out,
When there is nothing to climb up with.
No wall, no support, no anything.
Where are you?
Where are you?
I need you.
Then maybe,
I could be breathing
and be alive.
I could be hearing
and actually listen.
I could be touching
and really feel.
I could be seeing
and be able to focus.
Then there you were.
Giving me your hand,
Picking me up.
And once I was out,
I saw you.
And it was me.